Breastfeeding 4 months Journey

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Aaira is an easy baby. She latched well right after she was born. But then, I had engorgement during 1-2 weeks after she was born. It was so bad until one day I cried so hard in the middle of the night. I had fever on and off for five days and nipple crack. Couldn’t imagine the pain was that bad. But never gave up to BF her. I took pain killer prescribed by the doctor (well, it was actually medicine for pain after labor. You know what that means) to reduce the pain so I could have some sleep to keep nursing her. 

 I know she was so strong and I was fighting to keep out from distress. It was painful and even painful when the milk drop from 10 oz to 2 oz. She cried craving for milk. So my mom said gave her some FM. I still refused until 25th April, the EBM was finished and I couldn’t restock, I gave her FM. My husband needed to go back for work and we had to stay apart again. So, of course I cried each night before felt asleep. Well, that’s how millitary family had to go through. I was lucky to have my husband during labor and first two weeks confinement. I heard some of them delivered by themselves.

 I had to go to class after 2nd week of confinement. It was devastated to think that my milk dropped drastically. But to think that, hey, it’s okay to give FM. Never a failure to do that!. But Alhamdulillah, my milk production recover up to 5 oz and I only gave her FM for only about a week. Then, until today, I BF her fully. Hopefully I could make it until she is able to eat solid food. Then, I felt so happy that I did it! I know how precious breast milk are. It is a miracle that God gave for babies. 

 And mommies, it’s okay to feel bad and messy especially during confinement. I felt it too!!. But then, I realized that it was never bad to do whatever best for your babies. They’re strong like their mommies. Well, sacrifice is needed during your BF years. Especially when you need to plan the whole journey before you wanted to go out to somewhere. You’ll think this, “What about my baby? Who will take care of her? How will she feed?” Then, all questions will end up with “I’ll bring her along”. Or “Let’s just stay at home and wait until she could eat solid food”. And it goes until months. It may drive you crazy but you’ve got this. Do something you can to get the hell out from all negativities. There’s no ideal parenting like some people babling about but parenting is about giving what you think best for your babies.

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